Memories...

I look back and say "WOW have things changed big time." The people i once called sisters, our more less people that go to my school. It hurts knowing the "4ever", didnt come true. But theres a bigger problem i have to address before i can address "friends," and thats finding me. Moving from the age of 9 years old, i've lost Jessica Solis. I dont know the meaning of that name. Who is she? What is her beliefs? Atleast i had dance to go to, and create some joy for me. But even that has gone away...i dont have any joy left to dance. Slowly losing the most important man of my life,my daddy, is slowly killing me as well. Im not sure how much he has left. In these times, i remember about those girls that supported me when he went to the hospital. Now im alone, walking a long road back to Jessica Solis. Trying to go day by day. Hiding a my sorrow, with a fake smile. Dying inside, i say "Im okay." Wanting to end all the pain by one cut, i say "No, i cant." I dont regret what happened. But i will regret if atleast by my 15th birthday, im not somewhat friends with those people. This post, is a realization that maybe i have to turn to blogging. I feel like, this meant help me with my pain. Word after Word...i will restore my self...Word by Word...Day by Day...




Im drawing a new page of my life. ~Jess

Might be back

Heyyyyy, ok im sorry i havent been blogging...but i'll try to blog,postyoutube vids, & tweet this summer!!!! WOO! so yeah...Emily i kno ur happy...lol...well i shall go study for yucky finals -_- boo!



P.S.Dont forget to be true to you heart!

P.S.S. Thought i add tht P.S.




YOU KNOW I BE BACK!

Hey Hey Hey....

Sry i dont blog alot bout my Xmas was great lookin forward to 2010 WOOT WOOT!...well heres what i got....





Heres everything i got for my bday, Thank you SO much everybody!






Everything from "Santa" LUV U "SANTA" I got Everything & Much more!


I got Cute clothes, Curlin Irons, 25$ Itunes giftcard,& a laptop on itz way....





I luv this present, ive always wanted one, itz SO CUTE!!!, Luv u Mommy(aka Santa) <3Xoxoxo






Well i'll try to blog more, but hope everyone had a great luvin Christmas! Check my twitter cuz i'll always be tweetin ya! lol LUV YA! <3

13 BIRTHDAY PAR-TAYYY!!!!!!

One word to describe my bday party wuld b...AMAZING!!!! I luved every minute of it, Thank u every1 tht came :) U guyz diffently made it a nite i wont evr 4get :D


There was yummy food! Thank you mommy for tht :)


Omg the Cake looked so pretty :) It was yummy in my tummy!


You guyz sang Happy Birthday to me SOOO LOUD..but i LOVED IT!...Someone was so ready to eat cake at the end...im like"Heyy hold on wait let me pass it out lil miss missy..."


OMG PRESENT!!! I LOVED ALL MY PRESENTS!!!!



THANKYOU!!!!!



Everyone REALLY loved it when Party in the USA came on....HEYYY LETZ DANCE!



I loved Dancin with everyone to Tik Tok the most :)



My 13th Birthday was Amazing....All this people made me feel SUPER HAPPY on Dec.19 2009 My PArty couldnt have been any btr :) Thank you guyz so much!

Im 13!

Dear ppl reading this,

Im 13!!!! WOOT WOOT! Im so happy :D My bday turned out to be great in the end, The School part was a lil crapy but i luved seein EJAJAS reunited again! Tht was my gift 2 myslef and to EJAJAS and i luved it <3 I got to spend my bday wit the people i luv :) i luved my bday! Now i cant wait til my bday par-tay...well i have to clean up and get step up for la partyo so PEACE OUT PPL!C u on Sat! :)


With Luv,
Jess - New 13 year old!

P.S. I luved my present big sis! I luv u ebily c u soon! TXT ME! :D